I started reading more and more books and have seen a lot of improvements in writing. I am not inspired by anyone's writing style but yes I am writing for the sake of my own curiosity and fun. I did follow some of your ideas on how you write though xD

my blog: https://mangeshm.xyz/ some recent articles about my thinking and some stories I've written.

I'm a a 19 yo enthusiast never interested in education/college/degree. I aspire and believe in doing "great things". As a software engineer, geek, techie, human, and student I always feel blank, blind and confused.

I started working (at 17-ish) at a NGO which promoted FOSS for around 1 year, they wanted me to go after 1 year and hence I left, I was honestly shattered into pieces that day. In around next 20-25 days, I was asked by someone if I was interested in one of their openings and I ended up joining there (unplanned).

I got exposed to a corporate culture and I got experience of how the world. I am always happy with whatever pay I'm getting, but because of being in this space. I have lost of the sense of thinking of myself as a 19 year old, I'm always thinking as if I'm 25 or 26.

From what perspective do I look at whatever good or bad things I'm doing ? Should that be as "work", "passion", "hobby" ? When I left the previous NGO, I was blank and afraid that I wasn't having the financial stability. Even now I don't know if I am presenting my feelings and thoughts in the right way.

I don't feel good about my performance at work (always feel i'm not doing good enough), and I don't even feel good that I am a early starter and I'm learning, there's no happiness or sense of satisfaction (even 10%) in my mind. There's one thing constant in my mind all the time which is "This is not enough, I have to work more".

Do I need help ?

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