I'm really excited about this part; I've been using it to help with DevOps stuff and it's been giving me so much more confidence in what I'm doing as well as helping me complete the task much quicker.

Of course it's not always the case; my current gig has unlimited PTO and doesn't seem like assholes if you take it. It can be nice, but it has been co-opted by shitty startups to save money and drain their employees.

Unfortunately, if you don't want to try and grow them you'll have to get them from someone you know. You could also try the dark web if you really want some, I'm sure you could get some there but if you can avoid that, it would be better. Fortunately it seems like getting mushrooms mixed with fentanyl isn't a thing AFAIK.

> How do you know how much to take? / How do you take them?

Up until recently, I was just eating a small amount - kind of hoping a stem and a small cap would do the trick. Most the times, this would work, but every once in awhile you'll get a small guy that is way more powerful than you think. I've found the best way for me now is to grind them into a powder and fill large fillable capsules with them. You can get several different sizes; I would start with smaller ones at first. The trick is to grind up as much of that batch of mushrooms as possible, as well as you can (I just use a simple coffee bean grinder). This does a good job of making sure each capsule you fill with the resulting powder is as evenly spread as it can be without special equipment. The benefit of this is you will now have 10-30 mushroom capsules with the same efficacy and you can then start with a single one and see how you feel. For your first time, I would not push past a single one. It can also sometimes take up to 3 hours before it really sinks in depending on what you're eating and such, so the first time just do not take another one.

As far as my personal anecdotal experience, if you can get Steel Magnolias that's the way to go. Penis Envy's are OK too.

I became a lot happier in life when I decided I was not going to follow in their footsteps. Neither of them have been great at being happy, and that's something I'm more focused on now.

I recently went through the interview process as a sober guy and found that while I did get anxiety, it was a more healthy anxiety and not a crippling one. I'm on a low dose of an anti-anxiety medication (Buspirone) which I think helped; though I attribute it mostly to a better overall healthy state I've been in due to consistent exercise, healthy eating, and sleep. Not a super sexy answer outside of maybe the medication part.

This is something that I struggle with as well. My first remote job was probably 6 years ago and the first couple weeks I was getting really down on myself because my manager would always reply to my questions with "Um" first. To me this was basically "Um.... are you really asking this stupid of a fucking question? God I am re-thinking this hire big time already". Turns out she was actually saying "Um" because she was thinking about the best answer for the question or didn't know it herself yet.

I recently started a new position where my boss ends everything with a hard period and it just kind of reads a little off to me. For instance - "No. That is not correct, we do not want to do that." To me it reads a bit harsh in my head, but I'm pretty sure he just likes correct grammar.

Also, don't be so down on yourself regarding interview questions. If you spent a month or two just practicing these types of questions in your free time you'd be surprised how you'd do on some of the interviews you would normally bomb out.

Are you sure you aren't doing this because you have some sort of social anxiety that's prohibiting you from enjoying group activities? Even when I do like something, I often find that I would like to cancel and do nothing, but always feel better after when I go. I think it is pretty normal.